It's getter closer, and it feels great

When I had Pnut I went through a real hard time afterwards feeling like I had been cheated. I had had a beautiful pregnancy with her. I had absolutely no complications at all. Labor and Delivery were another story. My initial labor started on a Saturday, but I wasn't admitted until Tuesday. I spent all day in the hospital and my body stalled, not necessarily my contractions. With Pnut's heartrate dropping on a regular basis, and my body resisting medications designed to help me relax we finally went in for a C-section. Even that did not go as planned as Pnut's heartrate kept dropping to the 70s and 80s while they prepped me and the spinal did not take effect fast enough for everyone's comfort level. So, I was put under general anesthetic and when I woke up, it was to a quiet room. I was quickly reassured that Pnut was fine and beautiful and with D. Which she was.

I had felt like I missed the big event. You watch the baby shows on TV and see the joy and excitement when you see the baby for the first time. I didn't have that. So needless to say watching those shows afterwards were quite frustrating and to be honest, anger inducing.

Well, with Cashew, I am feeling a bit more reassured. I discussed my last delivery with my doctor who reassured me that since we are doing a planned C-section this time around we have more time to let the medication take effect, there is no hurry and no distress on Cashew to worry about.

I can also watch the baby shows on TV again. I respect women that give birth naturally, I respect women even more that can do it without medication. I tried, my body failed me, I had medication and those failed me too, Once Bitten, Twice Shy. I am excited to meet Cashew. Pnut is drawing our new family all the time including Cashew. She accepts his name finally! That was a chore. She wants to have input on his middle name, but unfortunately all the names she has been exposed to are Hispanic. The one that sticks out is "Cashew" Lopez. It is just hilarious what she comes up with. She also wanted Jose #3 since there was a #1 and #2 in her class this year.

She cracks me up. My expected surgery date is August 26th and it can't come fast enough!